I feel so bad that I have been NEGLECTING to blog...

I think I am just at peace for the time being. We had Mattie's doc appt and her A1C jumped to 9!!!

YEP, I thought we were going to throw up... The Doc said "Heidi, now don't get all stressed out and go on a war path, this is how it is when PUBERTY sets in. We have lots of highs, and than some lows. It is very unpredictable"

I think Puberty might just be a BAD WORD!!

WELL THEN

What is a mother to do?

We made some changes and are just giving so much more insulin that at first TERRIFIED me.
Mattie is now getting:

Breakfast 1 for every 7 carbs
Lunch/snack 1 for every 10 carbs or 12 depending on the activity.
Dinner/snack 1 for every 10 carbs or 12 depending on the activity.
Bedtime/Lantus 26 units of insulin


OHHH, that is soo much. I was so scared to give her that much, but.... to my AMAZEMENT it was exactly what she needed.

During Puberty, girls produce estrogen and estradoil... so estrogen actually acts as a INSULIN REJECTOR. So, while girls are maturing they are producing so much ESTROGEN that when given insulin... the estrogen levels are so high, insulin doesn't take effect.
Nice to know, that I am not a LOSER, and failing Mattie's diabetes.

So, now we give more insulin so it will take in effect and we just monitor WAY CLOSE how she is reacting. Because, there are times when girls don't produce as much and then we have just given them so much more insulin... and yep

CRASH, BOOM, BANG!!

Mattie's endo will see her now every other month until she starts menstruating, than it is most likely every month. This is just to help regulate her blood sugars. He said this is a whole nother ball game to play.

BRING IT ON. Mattie hasn't quite got to a rebellious stage or denial... so, I am crossing my fingers that she doesn't and just stay focused on the little challenge of PUBERTY.
I am very fortunate to have grown up with a mom who was strong and enduring. Putting up with me as a teenager, she is a SAINT! So, Mattie and I get our strength and courage from her, and we LOVE IT.

Thanks MOM for helping me to be a good mom and a good person, with good values as:
Courage,
Strength,
Determination,
Perseverance,
Control,
Attitude,
LOVE!

I am now just scared of how it's going to be in Jr. High. I know they don't have time nor the memory to babysit her and make sure she is testing when supposed to or making sure she gave insulin.

That is my next challenge, LETTING GO. I know that at some point of this I have to let go just a bit and let her prove to me that she can be responsible for her diabetes.

Any thoughts or does any one know how Jr. High works, or how it is working for you??