Hey my dear friends,
Are any of you on Facebook? If so how can I find you ?
Any way... I didn't get to watch the Oprah show yesterday... totally sad about that.
Unfortunately I have to work, every stinky day...
I work Mon-Friday 7am to 3:30... and it's day's like today when I feel like a HORRIBLE parent.
WHY, you ask
Mattie was up all night long w/Ketones and high sugars. Her legs and feet are really swollen too.
So, when Mattie is up all night long, so is MOMMY and DADDY... we try to take turns in helping her out, w/testing and testing ketones. We are big COMMUNICATORS at my house, so all three of us last night were discussing options and how's and whys... then Mr. Brohlen.. decided to run a small fever.
So, now here I am feeling sorry for myself because, I AM AT WORK!!!
I am sooo tired, stressed and have severe anxiety. I have to leave and come to work and have Mattie fend for herself.
Yes, I do have FMLA... but, my BOSS who is a not very nice word... DOESN'T UNDERSTAND
Like most peeps we know in America. Not that its her fault, but she just thinks that it's easy and no big deal. It is a big deal, its my child, my life, Mattie is my entire world... I function with her and would not function with out her. When our kids hurt we hurt with them. I have ofter prayed to get diabetes, then I would better understand and Mattie wouldn't be alone.
My boss makes comments like:
"its always something isn't Heidi"
rolls her eyes at me
One time I called her and said Mattie was extremely high Julie said " Whatever" and hu on me. She makes me feel like a bad parent for wanting to take care of my child. She has told me that Mattie's is old enough now that she needs to start being more responsible and to take care of her self, and be more active in her care.
REALLY?? I know my hair went up in flames at that moment. How dare she say such a thing to me, how dare she think Mattie doesn't do enough...
Julie has healthy happy and cute girls, she has no idea what it's like to be a diabetic and a diabetic going through puberty or life in general.
She is heartless and mean... and I am going to have to stand up to her, I guess I just don't know how to. My mom is terrific.. and very understanding, and she has a job that can allow her to help if need be, so it's nice to know I can still call my MOMMY when I need her and she will in a heartbeat, pick up my princess and take care of her. My family is good w/Mattie and they take her and have fun w/her and they have learned w/us all along the way.. See big communicators!
OK, I am done... I have lots to be grateful for, and lots of love... I just feel like I am the only mom that has to work and I had a pity party. MOVING ON!!
Sorry for the temper tantrum. Hope you will let me be your friend on facebook... oh Mattie is a cute facebooker too!
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