Friday, December 4, 2009


So yesterday when I got off work around 3:30ish I called Mattie...

YEP... she tested her blood at 3:00 like she was supposed too. She was so proud of herself too, and so was I.

Mattie said " it feel so good when you do the right thing" The rest of the night she was very positive and motivated about her diabetes.

The hardest part for us now, is the PUBERTY....

It has hit and is very strange, no real pattern, so it has been hard to pinpoint a starting point to fix. We are just up testing during the night, and lots of tests during the day.

So far so good, she hasn't had any DENIAL issues, I hear a lot of people say that the kids go through that and they go through it hard. Mattie has faced it head on and just keeps her chin up, and strives forward. I hope this continues, I really don't want to fight with her about it.

I wonder how long it lasts?
I have heard puberty can last for up to 4 years!! Not sure though, her next endocrine appt is in January, and we will see then.

The other thing I have been pondering is,
"Do I give her too much responsibility?"

I am not sure if I give her too much or not enough.... If I give her more now, is it going to be a negative effect or a positive effect..... HMMMM

Thursday, December 3, 2009

OOH Mattie

For that last FIVE years,
Mattie has been:

6am Test blood
9am Test blood
12pm Test blood
3pm Test blood
6pm Test blood
8pm Test blood

NONE of these testing times has EVER changed!!!

OOH, by my little Mattie thought that she could pull a fast one on me... HAHA
So, we started back to school on Monday, after Thanksgiving break...
I asked her what her blood sugar was @ 3.... DEAD SILENCE!!! HUH

OK, "Mattie it is important to test @ 3, that way when your walking home from school, you won't DROP!!!"

Mattie " OK, I will do it tomorrow"

Tomorrow came, and again NO TEST @ 3.....
So, this time I said " Mattie you know better, so if you don't test again before you leave from school, you will not have any computer time, cell phone time, or friends!!"

We ALWAYS have friends at our house, so I knew this would KILL HER!! sneaky huh?

SO, Wednesday... " Did you test" DEAD SILENCE AGAIN!!

Yep, I stuck to it!! She couldn't use computer, text ... she was miserable. She pouted all night long, and woos me, " i never get to have anything fun" Mattie asked me to call and remind her to test her blood. I explained to her that when she is at home, dad and I do all her diabetes, reminders, shots, drawing it up, going over numbers.... and the fact that she has already been doing this for years. There is no difference.

I know it must be so hard, it is hard on me to remember all that we have to do with her diabetes, and my own job, and then coming home and dinner, homework... laundry, shopping, cleaning... but Mattie we ALL JUST DO IT!! Being sad isn't going to change the time you test, it's not going to change your pancreas, it WON'T CHANGE ANYTHING. So, I told her have your moment, that is fine.. I don't blame you, but test when your supposed to so you can live a happy long life.

I told her that she is now 11 almost 12, going into Jr. High... and at some point whether she likes it or not,. she will have to be MORE RESPONSIBLE for her diabetes. I will ALWAYS be there and can help, but.. ultimately as a parent.. it is my job to teach her, and guide her.

Cute Mattie woke up this morning a bit high.. and she said,
"Well here is to another day, and I am lucky to have this day." OOHH I love her!!

I did threaten her too, I told her that if I had to quit my job, sell our house and follow her around school ALL DAY LONG, that I would in a heart beat. Just to make sure she is healthy. I get this umph from my mom!!

K, bye for now!! :)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I feel like I have been lost!

Well, wow it is now December and X-MAS is just around the corner. I hope every one is enjoying the holidays.

We are, Mattie left on 11-20 to see her dad in Texas... Yep, I cried when she left on the plane..

She did good though, she tested before she got on and was 176.. PERFECT for flying. Then when she got off she was 218... not too bad.

Mattie spent a week with her dad and step mom and three little sisters. Lots of fun and playing. They did OK with her blood sugars, I feel that her step mom just doesn't think its a big deal.

On Thanksgiving Day Mattie feel off a GO Cart.. (Mattie is clumsy) and she fractured her wrist. Her dad called and told me, and I explained to him that she will spill Ketones and have high sugars. he said " well she is already been way high, so it will be OK"
Then her step mom said "why are you having all these highs"
Mattie said " well, anytime I have trauma to my body my sugars spike"
her step mom says " Mattie, your fracture has nothing to do with your blood sugars"

REALLY???? and you would know this HOW? UUUMMM HELLO!!!

It drives me absolutely BATTY when people say things like this. They do not do nor KNOW the things Mattie and I do. Mattie is SO AMAZING, and so smart.. she counts her own carbs, she has given her self her own shots since she was 6... she KNOWS how her body is acting, and what it will do.

Oh, well.. it's over and done with. One day I will get my chance to explain to them.

Mattie came home on 11-26 and I have her blood sugars back down to normal and things are going pretty good for her. I have to take her back in to have her wrist looked at.. I should have asked her dad to get me the paper work and x-rays... but, DUH I forgot.

It is still pretty swollen and sore, so we will check it out.

I want more than anything for Mattie to have a relationship with her dad and his family, but I don't want to share at the same time. UUGHHH

Other than that, we are doing good and getting ready for Santa to come to our house... and Santa is behind schedule... as always.